Archive | May 2016

Merely Human

 

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Make them tremble in fear, O LORD. Let the nations know they are merely human.

– Psalm 9:20 (NLT)


My existence is an act of compassion. My existence is an act of kindness. My existence is a work of God.

  When I was born 14.25 years ago, a destiny was written. A life was planned. A blueprint was sketched out by the Creator.

And He chose me.

For what I still have yet to find out. But it will unfold. Slowly and surely.

I know this, and I know it as true. And I don’t know about you, but thinking I’ve been fought, planned, and redeemed, can go to my head. All of a sudden I become “all that and a bag o’ chips.”

But the reality is, we are small.


This morning my Mom led a Bible Study for all o’ us kids based out of Romans chapter 1. The first word is Paul. Paul was an apostle who worked for the Lord as a missionary – traveling all over Asia to proclaim the Gospel to the Gentiles. He was also beheaded eventually by the Roman Emperor Nero for doing so.

Before Paul’s conversion, he murdered Christians for a living. Like, that was his job. He hated them and Jesus with his whole being. Also, his name was Saul of Tarsus before he was converted.

Why did he change his name? Well most people believe that he wanted to have a new name for his new life in Christ. Which is probably partly true, but another significant detail arises.

The name Saul is a Hebrew name; it means “Asked for; inquired by God.” Basically stating that this guy is sought out by God and made a big deal over. A big shot. But for Saul to change his name to Paul is incredible, because the name Paul is a Roman name and means “Little; or humble.” Therefore, the Apostle Paul went from being a big deal to a little deal. He knew that his life was completely a work of God and that part of it was huge. But as of him – himself – he was small and nothing compared to the awesomeness of God.

For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength.

– 1 Corinthians 1:25

Sometimes it’s hard to fathom the death of our Savior. Whipped, flogged, pierced, and bruised for our iniquity. Why? Because He loves us small little creatures. He had such a passion in His heart for us that He died to save us. Even though we’re so small and He’s so large and amazing, He still wants to make great things out of us! He picks us up in His hands and holds us when we fall. He molds us into amazing people and sends us out to make a difference!

“For the LORD will not abandon His people on account of His great name, because the LORD has been pleased to make you a people for Himself.

– 1 Samuel 12:22

That is who we are. Everyone talks about the identity crisis in our society – and the answer is here!

We are a people of God. A chosen race. Not the monkeys or the kangaroos. The human beings. The only ones who bear God’s image (Genesis 1:26). We are small, special, and chosen by God to do something great. All of us. We might be weak, but God’s power is strong and vibrant in us! It shines through us into the lives of those around us who do not believe. The lives of those who need a resurrection in their hearts. I once heard someone say that the power that parted the Red Sea is at our fingertips. And I believe it.

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Isn’t it amazing if you just close your eyes and think about that? Just think (that’s an order. Like, for real) about how amazing that is. I repeated myself, but that’s ok. XD

Friends, we are only humans. We are small. But we have a Big God. And we bear His image – the image of OUR GOD! Like whoa. Just think about that, too. We bear the image of our God. Nothing else in this world can do that, right? Maybe you think I’m looney, but it’s the truth. And it’s worth believing. Don’t let it go to your head, let it go to your heart. Let it sink in.

We. Are. Small.

We. Are. Mighty.

 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

– Romans 8:37


I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

– Philippians 4:13

Amen.

Namárië! Tenna’ ento lye omenta!

Emily Greenleaf 😛

P.S. Last poll results: SNOOPY came in FIRST!! Yay!! I love Snoopy. Second place was Charlie Brown!

P.P.S. My next post will {hopefully} be the Legolas cosplay tutorial 🙂

P.P.P.S. Here’s a little something on being a “big deal.” XD

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P.P.P.P.S. Ok, last postscript I promise XD . Here’s an awesome song:

Know God, Know Identity

It’s like an issue. A girl issue. A “who I am” issue.

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I never really thought about it too much up until I turned 13. I started to take less pictures and cut myself out of videos. I didn’t like my voice, my hair. I wanted to be someone else. It was an identity issue.

Every time I would pass a mirror I would try to put on a remotely cute smile and make sure I looked “good.” Whenever a group of adolescents like me passed me on the street I’d shrink my head and look down. Sometimes I would just scowl at my image in the mirror and pray that I’d change as I grew older.

I’ve felt it. I know you’ve felt it at least once; and so have your friends. We’ve all felt inadequate and unworthy at times. Either we’ve heard it said from people, compared our images to those of celebrities, or just come to some ridiculous conclusions. We’ve all felt flawed before. But we’re not.

Because before the world began, He planned out your life. (Put your name in the blank here) He said,”And I think _____ will be born in _______ and she’ll __________ when she grows up. She’ll have ______ hair and _____ eyes with beautiful ________. And I’m going to make her in the best way that I possibly can. She will be a beautiful creation!” And then He creates us – so proudly – and watches us make our way into the world. He helps us take our first steps, talk, learn to read and write. Then we turn 12 and we look into the mirror and think less than admirable things about ourselves. God looks at us and he says,”O, my daughter? What are you saying? I made you the way you need to be. I am your God. I made you with amazing talent and I love you!”

We try to be perfect looking, like all the cool stuff, try not to be embarrassing by hiding certain avocations, etc.

But God shines on us and says,”You are exactly how you are made to be. You are ____________! And no one should make you hide who you really are.”

We can be who we are! Because we are beautiful. We are smart. We are worthy. We are daughters of the One True King.

Here’s a challenge that really blessed me to get over inadequacy:

Write down everything you are and love doing. Write that you are loved, worthy, and a Daughter of Jesus. And declare it with strength!

My name is Emily

I love my God and He loves moi.

I am strong.

I can do anything with His help (Philippians 4:13).

I am worthy.

I am beautiful.

I am smart.

I love my family.

I love algebra.

I am 14.

I love jumping with my horses.

I love sewing bags and costumes.

I love cosplay.

I love music.

I love blogging.

I love Lord of the Rings and Tolkien fandom.

I love Star Wars.

I love Captain America and Avengers.

I love Spider-Man.

I love Narnia.

I love pirates.

I love thunder and lightning.

I love new adventures and challenges.

I love rain.

I love life.

Then, put down the things that don’t define you.

I won’t believe in Satan’s lies.

I won’t listen to the voices of the world.

I don’t need to be different than who I am.

I don’t need to be anything other than who I was made to be.

Then, add this. And always remember it.

My name is Emily. I know my God and I know who I am.

My dear sisters, I have felt what you felt or maybe are feeling. But we are called to rise. Rise up and live! We don’t need what the world says is “beautiful.” I’m not saying we should not take care of hygiene or anything, but those things shouldn’t define who we are. Christ should. Know God  – We are all beautiful creations. Nothing can ever change that. Like. EVER.

So, enough about doom and gloom. I hate writing/reading it, so I want to stop and start talking JOY! I want this post to encourage you, not freak you out. I want to tell you how God changed me and made me not care! Here’s a few tips I’ve learned from my God!

#1. I am Loved

God loved me so much that He died for me. If I didn’t matter to Him, why would He pay for my life with His own?

“For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him will not perish but shall have eternal life.”

-John 3:16

#2. I am Beautiful

The Lord says over and over again in His word that we are His crown, His bride, and His love. If the Lord of Lords says that I’m a crown, then I’m a crown! God can’t lie.

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When I was reading Isaiah, this verse really touched my heart. I could just see God holding me in His arms and stroking my head. Lifting my head when I’m downcast.

#3. Make Beauty

Whenever I feel weepy and hormonal about anything, my Mom always catches on (and yours probably does, too). So, she makes me a bubble bath, puts on some nice scented candles, dims the lights, makes me a pot of tea, and plays some relaxing music. Some really great things to put in your bath are Epsom salts and essential oils. After I take a bath, it makes me feel special and reminds me that God put the thought of a bubble bath into my Mom’s head. Therefore, the bubble bath was God’s idea.

Other ways to make beauty is to keep my room clean. Now, I can honestly say that I don’t have a clean conscience on this one, because my room is more often than not a mess. But, when my room is clean, I can go in there and relax on the clean covers, read books, write, post something to my blog. My room is sometimes where I go to cry out to God or to thank Him.

Another way to make beauty is to (as hard as it is) get outside and take a walk. Enjoy the nature that God has created for us! And, walking balances hormone levels in our bodies.

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Here’s the Park I love to walk @!

#4 – Meditating on His Word

Reading the Bible and praying to the Lord is an excellent way to reflect on all His promises. Writing my feelings in my prayer journal is a HUGE part of my identity. Sometimes people don’t understand it when I say God speaks to me. How? Through the Bible. No matter how crazy it sounds, the message portrayed throughout whatever you’re reading is what God is trying to tell you. When I was having a hard time with my identity, I would cry out to Him that I didn’t feel worthy and on that same day I read the Isaiah 62:3 verse! Isn’t God reassuring?

#5. Talk GOOD to yourself

If God talks greatly about you, the King of kings and Lord of lords, why should you trash yourself? The Apostle Paul said this about crude language to yourself or anyone else:

“Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.”

-Ephesians 4:29

The verse says only to say things that build each other up – that means edify yourself with words that tell you you’re beautiful! Because we all are.

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Amen

 On a final note, I thought of the Peanuts Movie when Charlie Brown is trying so hard to impress his school and (mostly) the “Little Red-haired Girl.” He tries so hard until at the end he realizes that he didn’t have to do anything. He was loved by everyone even if he didn’t see it. He asks the Little Red-Haired Girl,”Why, out of all the people in our class did you pick me to be your partner?” She answers,”Because I’ve seen the kind of person you are.” He responds,”An insecure, wishy washy failure?” Patty and Violet nod their heads shrewdly. The Little Red-Haired Girl replies,”No! That’s not who you are at all…” Then she explains all the times she noticed Charlie’s admirable deeds. He never even noticed them.

It’s like us. We’re so hormonal that we can’t see how amazing and beautiful we are. I pray that these things will encourage you, suilad {elvish for friend}! For they are true. God told me to tell you all about them. He loves u.

Namárië,

Emily Greenleaf

P.S. Here’s a poll to fit the occasion. Last week’s poll proved that everyone wants to be an elf, BTW.

P.P.S. Here’s my latest cosplay status:

Thinking of a Captain America Cosplay next!! Here’s my sketch next to the real Steve Rogers:

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Drawing designed by yours truly 😛

And I’m currently working up some plans for an Elizabeth Swann/Will Turner/Jack Sparrow Cosplay for the new Pirates movie Dead Men Tell No Tales next year!! 🙂

Also, today I had an awesome time with my horsey friend Guy. We worked on leg yielding, jumping, and obedience (mostly for Guy 😛 ). Click HERE to go to my Instagram link (where I posted the collage)!

Ok, I think that’s it, folks! Until we meet again! :*

When God Speaks

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The cards couldn’t have come at a better time to match my circumstances.

The day had been a tearful one, and I sat sighing and sobbing in my over sized lime green moon chair. I usually talk out loud to God, but on that day I felt like a lunatic – talking to nothing but open space and blank walls. I didn’t really know how to express myself. “God, I know you’re there, but sometimes I wonder if you’re not! I don’t understand myself today. I feel strange; different from all the times we’ve spent together. It seems odd talking out loud. Are you really there listening? Sometimes I feel awkward  for speaking out loud. I know you’re listening, but are you listening?” I felt foolish for my talk to God. Knowing He’s there one minute then asking Him if He’s there the next. I think God knew I was walking around in the dark, too. And then Mom called me. She was cleaning out the measuring spoon/cup drawer and had found a card with a name for God and a scripture on it:

JEHOVAH SHAMMAH

The Lord is Present

“My Presence shall go with you and I will give you rest.”

– Exodus 33:14

After I read the card, I ran downstairs, collapsed in my oversized lime green moon chair and wept at my stupidity and for joy – God had spoken to me! His voice echoed through the words on that card. I still felt strange, and once again I told Him. I think He probably laughed in heaven at my childish unbelief. As if He said,”Still don’t believe Me, huh? Well, then, watch this!” No later had Mom called me up again to get two more cards! On one was written:

“But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

– Isaiah 40:31

The second card had another name for God and another scripture, but on the left side, in red pen, was written the words: Emily, remember this always 🙂 . And I didn’t add the happy face – that was there, too. The inscription on the card read:

EL SHADDAI
God Almighty

“For with God nothing will be impossible.”

-Luke 1:37

After reading these cards, I wept – this time purely for joy! God had seen my pain, my confusion, and frustration, and He spoke to me through the words on those cards! I was speechless for a while and just sat in that big green chair pondering to myself. And repeating in my head,”God just spoke to me!” I heard Hebrews 13:5b echo in my head after a while and I knew that God had and still has my back. Those cards are so special to me that I’ve put them in my Journal (the same on I wrote about in this post; click HERE for that) so all my children can see them and for those moments of doubt (that I know I’ll have ’cause nobody’s perfect) to remind myself that my God is always listening.


Ever since that moment in my moon chair, cards in hand, I have never thought the same way about prayer. It’s a whole new door for me. I like to put it this way:

“Imagine your favorite movie star/celebrity texts you and says,’Hey, I’m going to be in your city next month and have some free time on the 25th. How about coffee at Starbucks down the road?’ You are thrilled because you get to have coffee and a conversation with her/him! When you get there, you sit down and wait for your host to arrive. When she/he does, you have a long talk. After three to six hours, he/she has to leave because he’s/she’s late for an audition or something of that ilk ;). You wish it doesn’t have to end. You sigh and let him/her go their way and head home with a bunch of pictures to post on social media bragging about spending the day with a big star.”

As awesome as that would seem, prayer isn’t anything close to it!

Let’s imagine something else for a minute: Imagine that instead of an awesome celebrity like Ree Drummond (you rock), Jesus Christ shows up and asks you to coffee. Jesus Christ! Like, the God and author of all creation that made you and breathed life into you with His own nose and made you with HIS OWN TWO HANDS!?!? And Him, the author of everything wants to talk to you and hear how you feel about ___you fill in the blank_____ and _______. He wants to be able to tell you how much He loves you and cares for you and that He loves you so freakin’ much that He died for you; then rose again back to life after three days in the grave conquering Satan’s little wimpy butt! Right now I’m typing really fast due to Holy Spirit adrenaline pumpin’ through my veins. Anyway, that’s who wants to talk to You.

God has spoken to me many different ways.

Through dreams (hence that last post 😛 ), my parents, friends, but the most common place that He speaks to me is through the Bible.

Sometimes people don’t get it when I say that “God spoke to me through the Bible about…” But if you read it closely, and carefully, God has a message for each of us for us to read on that day and to live out. That’s why we read our Bibles every morning with a cup of tea and Yiruma/Piano Guys Music! Because God’s got something to say. He always does. Question is, though, are you listenin’?

Namárië,

Emily 😛

Here’s another really fun poll 🙂 Also, I’d like to announce that this is the 50th post on this here blog!! Praise God it’s lasted this long… 😉